I love you.

I always have.

I always will.

But maybe that’s the issue.

Maybe I’m just stuck in a loop.

Stuck between mirages and reality.

As if I’m approaching land but it seems it’s further than ever.

Like I sense my raft floating but I’ve been wrecked so many times.

I dream of the heat from your touch, the calmness of your shore.

Yet I feel at adrift.

Do you?

I wish it wasn’t a dream.

Why can’t it be real?

When I wake up you aren’t there.

Here.

In my boat.

I want to help.

I want to save you.

Do you want me to?

I can feel you sinking.

What can I do?

Don’t follow my footprints.

I know how it feels.

I don’t want to let go.

But I should.

For my own sake.

I don’t love myself.

So why would you?

I just want to be sane.

This cycle is killing me.

Break it.

I just want to reach land and have you by my side.

Because deep down, as much as it pains me;

I know that I’ll always be

Your Castaway.